I go by he/him primarily, but if you want to, in a jokingly or comradely sense, refer to me by a set of other pronouns, I'm cool with that.

In terms of hobbies, I guess I can kinda enjoy anything, but I don't really enjoy anything. I hear of people having things called "fandoms" but I never super duper vibed with that experience in general. I was in the "SCP" / Spoopy Things and Secret Organizations fandom for a while, I kinda just abandoned it after perceived literary grievances, and I do want to do something with it, 'cause I like the concept and some of it's execution 'n what not, but I just never really wrote anything substantial.

In terms of video games, I like games that give you a lot of choice and are sandboxes / RPGs, and some of my most played games are Rimworld (colony survival sim that lets you put a bunch of people into a world and go wild), Arma III (don't play it anymore, but when I did play it, I just put a bunch of army people down and let them fight - yes I know it's an imperialism simulator and I'm sorry), and Garrys Mod (self-explanatory). I also dabble in a bit of modded Minecraft (pirated ofc, fuck Microsoft and Notch, even if he isn't around at Mojang anymore).

I'm also a fan of roleplay. Basically, I just like to pretend to be things that I'm not and place myself into cool stories. I did a lot of just textual / chat based stuff when I was younger, but I think I'll take this premature interest I had and try some actual TTRPG's like Pathfinder or whatever if I get the chance.

I also like music, and I like a lot of different kinds, so I can't really be specific, but I absolutely love the more "soft" stuff like dream pop. One of my most favorite music things is weirdly, the Minecraft soundtrack. It isn't supposed to be it's own thing in the sense of being original music, but I have listened to it SOOO many times. Nearly every song is a banger to my ears. (Aria Math is a GOAT)

In terms of identity, I am sad to say and but I am proud to say .

I want you to know that as I'm writing this post, as I'm mulling over it's details, that I really don't wanna post this. Like, really don't. I hope I'll build up enough strength to just slam that post button, but most likely, I'll find someway to post it that doesn't involve me just doing it (throwing my mouse in the air and hoping it clicks the post button for me).

I don't like fear, yet it controls me so much. I don't have too many insights, but suffice to say, I hate fear, and you should hate fear too. I'm hoping that by coming here and hanging out with y'all, I can become less fearful and less scared, knowing that whatever I say or do, I still have comrades to fall back on. Idk, whatever it may be, it's one of my goals to become less scared and be more proactive in not only combating liberalism but also, if I ever get the chance, to protect and or help comrades .

Humor isn't, and shouldn't really, be just something you say. It's a casual thing, and because of that, people don't really think. Maybe it has some validity, but the idea that because something is a casual affair means you can turn on your brains auto-pilot is a little bit silly.

There's also the division between funnies and seriousness. I know leftism isn't a vehicle for memes, and that I shouldn't pollute genuine discussions or discourse with "BEANIS!!! I SAID THE FUNNY WORD!!!! BEANIS!!!"

My name is a funny, but that really shouldn't define my existence or be used to the detriment of something good or god forbid someone else's enjoyment or well-being. Funnies can be cool, and I like to believe that if utilized, can increase moral.

I'll do some funnies, but I'll try to restrain myself, is what I'm trying to say.

In all seriousness, inaction ("laziness") and impulsivity combined with untreated, undiagnosed ADHD and near constant Autistic burnout is a living nightmare that I do not wish upon anyone. These are my vices, and I don't like 'em.

The best way to solve a problem is to solve it, and so many people fail at that first step by not even acknowledging that the problem is a problem. I've already lunged myself over that first barrier to find an even larger barrier - actually getting shit done.

I sit in my room all day, drink soda, eat carnist fast food, and watch YouTube and play video games all day. Absolutely awful and wretched, if you can excuse the self-deprecation. My hygiene and health are bad, and all the problems that come with that just turn me into a wreck.

I wanna get better about this, and I hope that by joining the world's must liberal Citations Needed fan forum, I can get better about this. I might participate in the Self Improvement mega or something like that, IDK.

Also reading is a fuck and I know it's good for me but AGHHHSDAMDFSLS (in all seriousness, my eyes just glaze over huge bodies of text and while I can somehow read chains of forum posts, I can't push myself to read books that are over like 2-3 pages)