Maybe this is an event of what happens if I don't know? I understand that this wouldn't be something you could cold turkey, but what I'm saying is what if I'm that scenario you start questioning "do I need to know?". When you're in a comfortable mind space, think about what you would have done ~15 years ago when there was no access to an unlimited amount of data?

I'm definitely not a therapist so maybe this isn't helpful at all but worth a shot.