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God that's so real. I'm like almost 4 or 5 years on HRT myself and I remember when I started, seeing people post timelines and feeling so much like anxious hope looking forward to seeing so much change. And now I'm where they were or further and I look at myself and so often I just see a slightly older and softer version of the same person with the same face and the same build... and yeah sometimes it feels like I drew the short stick there. for some people, looking in, it seems like it happens so fast and effortlessly. But logically I know that isn't necessarily true. That they're probably only showing their best and editing out the rest, and that they probably feel the same way about themselves at least sometimes, and that largely we're all in the same boat in terms of the ideas about gender and sex that we're surrounded by and ultimately internalize. But it's cold comfort when I still feel, inadequate I guess? In my own head I still feel less "real" than them somehow. But yeah, that definitely isn't just a you thing.I think part of it might be that online trans spaces can skew kinda young, both in age and in like transition time. I think a lot of the older people might end up feeling similar to us and just leaving, maybe with better real life support networks than they had when they first started and needed to find that online.
Anyway, I'm rambling now. I'm glad my stupid words could be some use. I hope you start to feel better soon, it's been nice sharing this discussion with someone else who's been through similar stuff, I rarely get to talk to someone else who really knows how that feels
They really were and I greatly appreciate all of your posts. If you ever want to have a discussion in the future, feel free to PM me or whatever. I'm slowly coming out of the tunnel, but I'd be more than happy to have a good talk.