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I mean like people like parents/siblings/spouses/significant others/kids/roomates/housemates...

I mean, I have paranoia about other things too (such as germaphobia/mysophobia), but specifically on this issue of people snooping, is amongst one of my top fears, and I'm just curious if other have this similar fear/paranoia.

Like every time I wake up, I wonder if my parents or brother put some malware/spyware on my phone because they think its a funny prank or whatever.

Every time I enter my PIN for my phone, I always cover the screen before entering it in case my parents have cameras in the house. And even more so in public, I'd fear CCTV getting my PIN.

[No, I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, I don't hallucinate or anything like that. (But I do have a diagnosis of depression.)]

[This is distinct from the common fears of government surveillance or whatever. That, strangely enough, I fear much less, since I'm just one in hundreds of millions of people that they would care about, so I'm not so worried about that.]

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[โ€“] [email protected] 12 points 1 week ago (1 children)

Controlling parents in your life?

[โ€“] [email protected] 7 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago) (1 children)

Not "controlling" but they are emotionally abusive. Especially when I was younger, but even now they are still a bit emotionally abusive. They constantly accuse me of "faking" my depression, while simultaneously want to do involuntary hospitalization. Their emotional abuse is probably why I even have depression in the first place. (I suspect my mother to be bipolar, one minute shes fine and acts nice, 5 minutes later she gets mad for small issues, even for problems like her shitty coworkers or other issues not related to me.)

Moving out is not really an option, the economy is shit (not to mention, the incoming tarriffs with the next administration), and with depression, such a sudden change in life would definitely make me unable to hold a job. I would end up dead by suicide if I attempted moving out. I tried living at college apartments when my parents funded my college, but I had anxiety all the time, and couldn't deal with it. Actually moving out permanently would feel much worse. Ironically, I have separation anxiety even tho my parents are emotionally abusive ๐Ÿ˜“

Not to mention, living alone also has another challenge, in case of home invasion, I wouldn't be able to defend myself (cops are useless btw, they take at least half an hour to respond, not an option), if I got a gun, I risk getting depressed one night and ending myself, so a gun isn't an option either.

Basically a lot of issues with moving out, not good for depression.

[โ€“] [email protected] 5 points 6 days ago

Hey there! I can relate a lot to what you're saying here. I've often felt trapped in a bad place because all of the alternatives seem worse. I had a fairly traumatic upbringing (some emotional abuse, a little bit of physical and sexual abuse, lots of emotional neglect), and I also suffered from a fear that the people around me would mess with me and invade my privacy.

For me, the need for privacy came from a place of deep self-loathing fueled by a shitton of criticism from my dad (why can't you do anything right/think the right things/just focus on something). I didn't want others to see who I really was, so I went to extreme lengths to hide it from the world. Everything was locked, and I used to write my thoughts down in an intentionally opaque way to try to mask what I really felt.

I dunno if that matches your lived experience at all, but one of the consequences of all this was that I did this thing called catastrophizing. I'd become totally crippled and stuck and lost because I'd only see the worst possible outcome in every decision I might make. It's very common for people who have suffered emotional abuse (especially for those who have their judgement, sanity, or morality criticized by their parents). I could absolutely be off base here, but like, I started feeling those feelings of doom and danger as I was reading your comment. I am absolutely not trying to minimize your situation. Catastrophizing is a horrible thing to battle with, and it takes actual traumatic catastrophies before you begin to catastrophize.

w.r.t. home invasions and safety, it might be good to reevaluate that. Is it really so dangerous that you would need to defend yourself? Like, maybe that's the case! I grew up in a pretty safe place, so I lack the proper context to understand that fear. I do know that violent crime is very uncommon. Your situation may seem hopeless and you may feel trapped. I've felt that way. Just know that while some choices have risks and may feel dangerous, things don't always go that way. You deserve to feel safe and secure.