Didn't really warm up today after a bungled site visit meant an hour in the cold without enough layers on. Total brain fog at work like I could barely remember my name let alone do my job. The sads are definitely hitting. I watched the last episode of Tales From The Loop which is sad enough itself, but somehow the thing that made me most emotional was seeing Cole walking the sunny meadows, flowers and grass waving in the breeze... I wanted to touch the sun...

Thinking back to the last few winters from 2020 on, they were all significant low points of the year - aside from getting my PR a bit over exactly a year ago. That was glorious until shtf in July at work.

Anyway, I know my risk factors, so I've arranged social things for all 3 of the next days, I'll try taking my meds again now that my sleep schedule has reset, and I'll prolly have a coffee at work tomorrow (green tea is not cutting it). I need external motivation to exercise, that's probably the biggest thing missing. If I get a decent tax return in July I think I'll look into a personal trainer for even a month, even though I'm very cagey/picky about such things.