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Hi there. I've joined my country's communist party a year ago, and for this year i've just worked in my province local circle.

From what i've observed nobody as much of a clue (or at least doesn't show it), from the party's administration (who just aims to exist another day as a party, just financially and bureaucratically) to the lowly comrades like me, on what it is to be done.

I've meditated for a full year on how things should work at our stage, but i admit i have no clue on how everything should work: mainly the local circles. This is a problem because now i'm secretary of my province circle. And now i don't know more than ever what to do.

So, now i come for help, i couldn't find any resource for what it's our stage in a socialist plan (near 0%). Briefly: we are 500ish in our country, 50ish in my region, and about 8 active member in my circle. We are mainly "middle-class", petty bourguesie student's.

What should we do to basically START? By literally the basics, my comrades don't seem to auto-organize much, they need quite an encouragement to work thorward something. And after I get around on how to manage the circle, what will we do on the long and brief term in my city? When should I go for activating the whole region rather than just my city? And how would I go about scaling everything?

Now I've figured I should build a collective where political discussion (which is pretty dead in the city) could florish. Also I should find a way to engage my comrade in actual Marxist theory (they just have a vague understanding). From this I could show the party's administration my worth and aim for regional secretary (and iterate the process).

But, again, I'm lacking any resource on this.

And ultimately, the most important, how do I avoid feeling like a teacher giving homework to my comrades? I want this to be about "us" not me.

Thank you very much!!

I don't know if this is the right community, but I need an answer, I've been thinking of this for months.

Twice it happened to me, to meet people who say they are interested in X (generic topic), just like me. So we end up creating a group, all motivated, bold, and hopeful to exchange material (productions, ideas, etc.) about topic X. And twice it happened to me that I was the only active person in the group, ending up being associated with the figure of "head" of the club. Not that I don't like taking charge of the thing, but evidently I'm not good at it at all: because no one even responds to what I share.

Of course, you can tell me to propose activities; but first of all I have no idea of what it is to be done in a club, having never been in one before; secondly, people simply ignore, or are busy with other things, and I'm not talking about people who have a career, i talk about students during holiday.

I've been thinking about it since January and I came up to this: the beauty of a collective entity like the club is that it allows for exchange between peers, but it only works if the peers make it work, if they "self-manage". And I'm not talking about running a factory, I'm just talking about being able to discuss and propose recreational activities.

This led me to observe that (at least) my generation is brain dead; and I'm not saying this to be edgy, if taken as a whole these people can't function.

Let me explain myself: when I tried to find a solution, I only found vertical realities, very similar to the school one (note: I'm from italy). Where I, or someone, give the "lesson"; where inevitably there must be a sort of messiah who brings the solution, the information, and there is never a collective construction. In one of my two experiences I noticed how in a "debate" people inevitably ended up (or just straight up answered) agreeing with me ("I think it's like you say it is"); not because I was exhausting them, but because I was giving a complete opinion: so the “debate” died there, at the beginning. There is no verve. They are all dependent on an entity/element that thinks for them. And if i were there to "conduct" a discourse, I'd feel like the teacher who needs its pupils to develop a thought, i don't think its fair.

And now I feel like a bit of an asshole, like Heraclitus, asking you how to wake people up; how to activate them and put them on their feet.

P.S. My two experiences involved Poetry and Politics