gayadventures

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[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 hour ago

Thanks for the tip meow-hug

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 hour ago

What can I say shrug-outta-hecks

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[–] [email protected] 10 points 7 hours ago (1 children)

Oh this wasn’t my first! That was last week. It was very bittersweet, none of us arrived but we were brutally honest to eachother throughout. It was kind of endearing and cute.

No regrets about that one really.

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submitted 7 hours ago* (last edited 7 hours ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]
 

It’s odd that it comes up now but it has.

But let’s tackle the elephant in the room first (why I made this account in the first place).

Had a hookup. Of course I did.

It went bad.

I decided to bottom.

Prepared the whole day, only for the guy to be very eager (in a bad way) and the language barrier made it hard to communicate things.

He entered and came within 2minutes. (With a condom of course.)

Dude was definitely closeted, and I should have trusted my gut about having fun with people that I can actually communicate to.

But alas. He was very awkward, and promised a round 2 but then complained about the room being too hot and having a headache (lol).

We talked a bit. He admitted that he usually targets people of my racial background agony-shivering

I just told him to go if he wanted to, can’t really force him.

Went a bit delirious for an hr but calmed down.

Talked to a friend about this, and I am already laughing at this experience. Taking a break from Grindr and the other gay apps for now.

Worst part? I actually did have a good experience with another guy this past week and now I am just reminiscing it. We follow our socials but he’s half-way across the globe now. Fuuuck - and I did meet some other cool, descent people.

But back to ol’ reliable for now. My hands and toys can seemingly do things some of these men can’t do. (Very real)

and from the previous thread,

yes I did start on PrEP, and had all STIs tested, all negative. I know it wouldn’t even capture this and last week’s activities, but I’ll watch closely for symptoms.

So back to the title,

I feel like an adult, atleast for now.

Common to most people around my age, I never feel like an adult. I used to relate. But now, after all this but also other aspects of my life, I think I’ve practically done all the bullshit an adult is supposed to do.

And I also realize (again) half of these “adults” are fucked in the head, so not really something to live up to.

Until next time.

Edit: clarity

[–] [email protected] 3 points 3 days ago

Yes sir, will do.

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[–] [email protected] 6 points 3 days ago

You know how it is sis

[–] [email protected] 14 points 3 days ago

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You both are absolutely right. I’ll force myself to cool down and postpone today’s arrangement.

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I do try to keep things grounded but the past month has been a bit much.

Stay safe out there comrades.

[–] [email protected] 9 points 3 days ago (1 children)

ACAB includes the volcel police

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[–] [email protected] 16 points 3 days ago

BAHAHA yeah, agree 100%

if you're the bottom look up info about douching or other ways to ensure you are clean down there

I come from a culture where bidet showers are the norm. I know all about it.

Probably won’t do anything down there for a while.

[–] [email protected] 24 points 3 days ago

This is all very reasonable. I ask for testing but don’t poke and prod for an official certificate or date. The recent history stuff absolutely makes sense to ask, I am usually awkward anyways so I am not bothered by being awkward and will definitely ask, thanks for that.

The first guy I met, we did use protection for anal stuff but for the rest it was usually just oral and kissing. I am considering getting prep aswell, but just hesitant since I have already a lot of side-effects to contend with and don’t want to risk more. I’ll talk to the clinic about it.

As for drugs, yes I have 0 tolerance, especially the illicit ones you mentioned. I made that clear in my profile, but it’s good to be reminded of these things.

Actually took a shot the first time, it was not a wise decision.

Yup, that’s my overall goal. I am not much of a fan of complete strangers anyways, and would like to get to know people.

Thanks for this. I do try to remain as reasonably safe as possible, and told my friends to hold me back if things get a bit much.

 

met a different guy the day after, and 2 days later met another different guy.

I have ADHD. Testing the pills on a higher dosage rn which makes me insane (real). Never allowed myself to think sexual thoughts in public as a teenager in fear of consequences. Never dated, never had experience with a relationship.

I read a lot of resources online and I overthink a lot. Especially with my sexuality. The meds made it easier. The encouragement of my friends also made it easier.

So I downloaded Grindr. I got messaged - the usual. The meds does a funny thing of increasing my libido, makes me a bit more impulsive, gives me more energy and supercharges my heart where it beats fast til no end and so I continued chatting. Which lead to plans being made.

Might even meet another guy later today.

I dont know if im just acting out (other aspects of my life has been really stressful and overwhelming) but I just opened the flood gates and there’s no way to close em back. So many questions about aspects of my sexuality being answered practically instantly.

Planning to take an STI test at a local clinic to establish my baselines in a few days. No doubt the frequency will tone down with time. Should I even worry? Because right now, I love it.