Witch

My mother got put back on her disability benefits and now I'm hunting down apartments for us to live in to get out of a bad housing situation that we were stuck in because it was cheap and we only had one income.

Got two viewings this week.

My mother's internal review went through and she not only is going back on disability, but because the decision to kick her off was a wrong decision, they're giving her almost a year's worth of backpay.

Things this means:

• We can actually move to a place without a landlord and her son living in it, giving us tenant rights and the ability to communicate with a landlord without worrying we're going to get evicted
• We can even afford movers
• We might not have to go to a food bank anymore
• We can now budget things instead of being like "okay that goes to rent, that goes to debt, and anything leftover is groceries"
• I don't have to hunt for a job while physically and mentally incapable of doing one right now

I'm honestly so thrilled my head hurts.

Thinking of signing my mom and I up for a free debt counseling program and trying to reduce the amount we pay each much. I'm not sure how much it'll help, but I figure if I get this done out of the way quickly, any damage to our credit might be recovered by the time we have to move.

Job searching still hasn't been going well. My first ever job interview got rescheduled for Thursday and I feel like I might be getting too burnt out to do it. It was like all my energy was placed into getting ready for it, and now I'm just tired.

On the bright side, I'm getting a not-zero sum of money in the form of government refunds. Might be able to get some glasses and get a week of something like Meals on Wheels so that we can relax for the first time in months, and still have enough to start up a savings fund.

Fetishes are fun, while reconsidering your morals is not.

It isn't even exclusive to us. Many times, when someone is "in the mood", they just go for what they're in the mood for without thinking about it in the moment. They can look at all the erotica they want, and then experience self-hating guilt afterwards for a good five minutes, and then repeat the same thing next Tuesday.

Fata Morgana.

Listen, whether you like Visual Novels or not doesn't matter. But Fata Morgana is just somehow...perfect. Everything is resolved and I don't feel any need to complain about any aspect of it. It was an experience to play a game that left me with no questions afterwards. It was just a really good story.

Having just a teensy bit of a nervous breakdown reevaluating my life choices the night before a job interview.

Gonna try to get to sleep, though.

Using drawing as an example, because that's what I'm used to:

The problem (or good thing) with art is that it's definitely a matter of mindset that lets you improve. See, everyone is a beginner at art!

There's no such thing as an artist that doesn't need to practice. Every artist has to practice gestures, figure drawings, environmental drawings, all those fundamentals that pop up in beginner courses. Eventually, they start to learn shortcuts. They start to memorize specific ways of drawing the torso bent a certain way that pops up in their art a lot. These shortcuts speed up their art, makes it seem like they're a master, but...

They're still beginners. They're skilled, but they're still in the beginning of their journey, because art is a life-long journey. It's something you constantly improve at, constantly decline, constantly go on a roller coaster of failures after failures and success after success.

A beginning itself isn't a failure. Actually, the majority of failed art isn't a failure, because hey---your observation skills are good enough that you know whats wrong in your mind, you just have to figure out the way to get there and improve.

Some people are good at the artist mindset, and some people aren't. It's not a matter of talent, beginners vs pros, so forth. It's just a matter of how you think of self-improvement and how you cope with things.

Jam the Housnail.

I thought for the longest time it was a fever dream. That it didn't exist. I could never find it anything related to the godforsaken thing on any Canadian channels list of cartoons they aired. My family thinks I am joking when I mention how horribly this show plagued my thoughts over this years, but I had been searching for a decade.

Anyway apparently it's from Japan and I probably watched it on Veoh or something, because it's on my anime list now and I finally found out what it was called last year.

https://myanimelist.net/anime/29367/Jam_the_Housnail

Thank you for this post! With the prices of meat skyrocketing we are considering more vegetarian meals but we've been struggling with carb-heaviness. Hopefully I can find something good in these cookbooks that can make up for it.

No bonus points - Air fryer potatoes with oil on it to make it nice and crispy

Yes bonus points - black bean burgers. It's breadcrumbs, warmed black beans that got cooled down, and an egg to make it stick together. That's healthy.

Genshin Impact and Honkai Star Rails.

Genshin Impact successfully had my attention for over five hundred days. It's a regularly updated game that can be played entirely F2P, and I love that concept. Anyone who claims that you have to whale to get good at the game is wrong. You just have to play the game and ignore that some Youtubers and Twitch Streamers seem to believe that fake big numbers are the only way to improve in that game. In reality, I've watched streamers ignore that, and instead opt to play with their favorite romantic pairing or favorite character because they just enjoy the game more that way.

Honkai Star Rails seems to be a similar concept, however it faces a dilemma where it is a turn-based game and as a result the battle mechanics, so far, have to be more carefully considered. For example, I run a defense-healer-single attack-AOE attack team. So far, I tend to die if I don't do that. The gameplay is more simplistic than Genshin Impact, but the battles are stronger and tend to take longer. Bright side: because it was recently launched you get a bunch of free pulls! Yeah!

Not really.

I like witchy stuff but only if its considerable to placebos. A rose quartz bracelet, for example, might not be scientifically going to attract love and good fortune---but its cute and makes me happy, so who knows, THAT might help.

If I had to choose a religion though, I'd probably go with one of those polytheist religions because ever since I was a kid and first went to a church camp, I decided that a singular "God" scares the shit out of me. I basically considered "God" too overpowered and decided that wasn't for me.