It was very lonely and difficult. My parents were tiger parents and I could never live up to there expectations. I tried hard in school but I could never get the grades my parents wanted and plus I have an intellectual disability which didn't help. My dad had a very short temper and got violent easily. I got bullied a lot both at school and at home. Don't get me wrong there were some good times but overall my childhood was very traumatic and a lot of my personality traits I have now was a response mechanism to all of it.

I go to bars and night clubs a lot. There's always a lot of attention to be had there. Dressing up in sexy clothes always works. I used social media like Instagram and TikTok as well.

Yeah, do less drugs, get a schedule, more time with my friends and family. I'm turning my life around, I'm spending a lot of time leaving the NEET lifestyle so I can be a better girlfriend to my future boyfriend.

A lot of browsing the internet, sites like 4chan, Reddit, Discord, Instagram, DeviantArt, Newgrounds, Fandom, MAL, TikTok, StarBound Forums and KiwiFarms. Playing games such as Halo, GTA, Minecraft, StarBound, Civilization, Doom. I did a lot of weed, hanging out with friends, couch surfing, lean, night clubs, odd jobs, psychedelics like magic mushrooms and LSD, sleeping at hotels, going to bars, sex, seeing family, went on holiday to Hawaii once, cocaine, listening to music, making YouTube videos and I tried programming at one point.

"what’s your source of news?"

The internet

"how do you know what to trust in life generally?"

Wait a little bit to see if it gets debunked.

Thank you for your works. I do have other problems in my life I've never denied that.

I don't read books that often. I find reading hard and there hard to follow.

"kind"? Isn't it just one IQ test that everyone takes? It was 5 years ago when I was 19. I did another one when I was 14 and I scored 73 on that one.

I guess it's all overcompensation. Everyone thought when I was a kid that I was slow, lazy, under achieving, ect....ect... So I just overcompensated in my head.

I see we got the killing expert over here

Yes I have. When I was 14-15 I Dated a guy for a few months. It got old quickly. We stopped caring about each after a few months. When I was 19 I dated a guy for a few months but again I lost interest after a few months. It's hard for me to have a long term relationship with anyone. I get jealous easily and I can be very one sided. I've got my eyes set on someone at the moment. I'm going to see a therapist soon. I know I can love I just have problems. I need to learn to empathize with others and be more dedicated.

What even is "narcissistic" abuse? How is it any different then regular abuse?