My opinion may be biased, since I'm a Dom, but I think that other commenters nailed it:
It was a quicky, that's why you didn't feel anything deep. It seems that you need a longer term or at least better prep'd relations. It is still possible to do it "hypno" style - use, abuse and throw away, but with caring dom it will feel deeper.
Give it some time to settle. And look for some other stories / experience from other sissies not on porn sites, but in communities.
At least now you can brag about it, if you want :) And to some degree it is a milestone - first successful IRL encounter. It takes courage to admit and try, so congrats are in order - ๐
My opinion may be biased, since I'm a Dom, but I think that other commenters nailed it:
At least now you can brag about it, if you want :) And to some degree it is a milestone - first successful IRL encounter. It takes courage to admit and try, so congrats are in order - ๐