Shit, I am sorry my dude, this does sound like an unhealthy dynamic. While not as severe, I have been in situations like yours, and while I was able to cognitively handle what was being thrown at me, I didn't realize the emotional, and subconscious trauma.
Slowly overtime your brain is adapting to this environment. All that criticism from her is going to stick with you.
I wish you the best man, I know these situations aren't easy to leave.
Ah shit, that's a good point! Thank you!