I have felt the same way as you for a very long time and to be honest still do feel that way nowaday as Im over the hills. I still go solo very often. I ended up with 2 dogs who tame the loneliness for a bit. Online dating is a joke nowadays. I recently told someone I work with I screwed up when younger bc my priority was looking for love. I've spent all my life looking for love as a priority. If I could go back in time, I'd concentrate on a career and financial security as priority first before love. Nowadays, I've gave up on love,, I'm in it for the money now. Though that maybe my motto as a joke now, it haven't improve any in rl.
What I'm saying here is don't let finding a woman be your first priority. Financially secured and they will come. Just my opinion from my own experience.
Man, that's deep. About to go to bed as that was the last thing I read. Gonna be tossing and turning bc of it.