That's the only guess I got.

I went to midwest.social and looked at my own profile. Gives me a general timeframe of when I was banned. One of the last comments I made that was federated to that instance was this comment.

Context is easy to make out, but the dude was saying that constant reporting on deaths in Palestine was unhelpful because it would desensitize everyone to the death and make them expect it.

The only thing I can think of is that one of the admins of midwest.social is aggressively zionist or just completely misunderstood that comment.

people are just so patheticly petty

Modding attracts a type kinda like clergy attracts pedos

Usually that just gets me mass downvoted and called a tankie

I'm not 100% what is going on with ban notifications, but you will get some. Mostly from communities but not all. I think it's depending on which instance has implemented that AutoMod function. But none of them tell you that you've been banned from another instance. Hell, it doesn't even show it in my modlog. I had to go to midwest.social and manually search their modlog for myself and THEN see that I was banned. I'm sure I've probably got that on a few other instances.

I abhor racism. I was raised in an exceptionally racist household. I cannot say that I never said the N-word because I did. A lot. But growing up in a hateful echo chamber in a small town on a small island when everyone is so white they sunburn at night? You never see anything to break that mold. First person I met who wasn't white was a Native dude at school when I was like 10ish. He was great, invited me over to his place and I went. Met his family. Every single thing I had been told was a complete lie. Was at that point I started second guessing everything that I was ever taught by my shithole parents. I was furious. I'm still furious. Well over 2/3rd of my life later and I'm incredibly furious. I am not okay with being used, especially against people for no reason. Like hell am I going to try and continue that for other people.

Then there's the fact that I'm gay and have a "vested interest" if you want to put it that way because racism isn't that different from homophobia in how insanely fucking stupid the entire thing is.

But more than anything? It's just a fucked up way to be. I'm a die hard Trekkie. If I watched that show and came away going "Racism is okay!" then I need to be shot.

To be fair, you were banned from hexbear.

What? Can't hear you over the banjo

Sounds like you been served by Jordan Lund haha

Oh absolutely. I have no idea if I'm racist unless I have it pointed out. Do I want to be? Fuck no. I just want to be told how so I can stop doing that. I don't want my fun to come at the expense of others. Unless they're billionaires or nazis, they can fuck off.

Me? Oh I've posted here before. Hell, I've been posted about before. Like I said, I am an asshole.

Granted my biggest 'blowout' over a power tripping piece of shit mod, I used TenForward itself to do it instead of here. Arguably I should have but it was just after the launch of TenForward and the admins of Startrek.website were actively harassing myself and the lemmy.world admins to attempt to get me banned. That and there were a lot of posts being made at the time questioning why I had suddenly left startrek.website, why myself/Picard/Umm/NegativeNull and others suddenly stopped posting to Risa entirely. It was just easier to make one giant post on that community.... why did I start talking about this and get links?

I need sleep. I also need ADHD meds. And I'd like to eat.

Can someone shoot me?

Midwest is still federated with Hexbear as well.

What I find bizarre is that I only found out by complete accident.

Someone else made a post and @'d me. I looked at it and it had a response with someone saying "That account has been banned" and he was from the midwest.social instance. This dude happens to be a buddy of mine and I chat with him on Steam and Bsky so I reached out and asked what he meant while I looked at midwest.social and saw the banning.

He thought that lemmy.world had banned me for whatever reason (Spam. Spam would be the reason) and that's why he wasn't seeing my posts or anything on Lemmy anymore. That I either got banned or left lemmy on my own (which I did do for a hot second). I responded to him and asked if he could see the response. He couldn't. He then looked at my account and saw all the posts outside of midwest.social and saw all the posts I've been making and that's when I made this post.

Whole situation is just so weird.

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