https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0145213417302636 There are cases of faked anorexia and bulimia mentioned here, but since that also has physical symptoms, I'm not sure it's similar enough.

https://www.orangatamariki.govt.nz/about-us/research/our-research/medical-child-abuse/ this information pamphlets includes faked psychological illnesses as default part of medical child abuse. It also mentions how much victims struggle as a result of the abuse and are often left with lifelong problems (like your td) from whatever unnecessary treatments they received or abuse inflicted to fake something. I can't seem to find much separation of the psych mca from more physical mca, unfortunately. It gets lumped together - which means it's an expected version of it, but that probably doesn't help much.

I'm sorry she hurt you.

First of all, i'm sorry for what you had to endure. It sounds extremely painful and difficult to handle.

I don't have the answers to your questions as i have never gone through this, i was actually the opposite case. Had suicidal ideation since age 12 and didn't see any kind of mental health professional until my mid 20s because "what will people think?". Turns out i'm bipolar and other stuff.

I do know, however, that some moms will try to send their "problem children" away to to mental health facilities to "fix their kid" and they'll sometimes flourish when inside, suggesting the source of the problem may have been the parents, environment or the family dynamics. Lots of parents cannot accept or even think of the possibility of them being the main source of their kid's suffering.

I've also met mothers that never wanted to be mothers and somehow take out their frustrations on their children, often in convoluted ways that make it look like it's the kid's fault. This seems to be misplaced anger and frustration to me.

Then there are those who identify or justify themselves as being a victim of circumstance and will go through great lengths to defend and support this hypothesis, often making their own or their loved ones' circumstances worse to keep this role.

And there is also the "devouring mother". The mother that nees to feel useful so will always be "fixing things" for their children or "helping" them in some way, even if their interventions are detrimental to their kids' wellbeing or development as individuals. Many do this because they cannot justify their existence or conceive their own identity beyond that of someone who "takes care of their family" so they just never let go of their control.

There are also sadists and narcissists, of course, who are often jealous of their childen's successes or virtues and will attempt to sabotage them to shine brighter or put out the kid's flame so it's no competition.

Maybe one of these rings a bell to you, maybe not. Just throwing possibilities out hoping something clicks.

Either way, while your upbringing will always leave some kind of mark on who you are and who you become, that mark can be transformed and it can only define you as much as you let it.

Who you become is up to you.

I hope you find what you're looking for. Godspeed, brave seeker.