I want to be loved
Everybody does
I want to tell somebody
But I got a fishing hat on

I want to be free
Everybody does
I want to unlock the cage
But I lost the key

I want to smile wide
Everybody does
I want to be happy
But my teeth bleed

And it’s all broken

I want to create
Everybody does
I want to encourage
But I can’t hear myself

I want to speak clearly
Everybody does
I want to express it all
But my voice gets lost

I cried when I chipped my tooth
Now the rot is exposed
I’m afraid to laugh loud because it makes it worse
It hurts so bad I can’t focus on what’s real
Even if my eyes sparkle it’s never enough
I’m not good enough
Never will be
Somebody will tell me yes I am
I’m willing to accept that
So they don’t feel sad
If only they knew I throw it away
And that tooth is still there

I’m a lonely soul
Lost in my words
Difficult to love, I’m convinced
It's a complaint and I sound like I’m whining
It’s not entitlement
I just don’t see what’s wrong
Mud in my eyes as the tears fall
They mix with my teeth blood
I’m a monster

I’m full of hallucinations
When my world is aflame
I see flesh melt off our bodies like it was never really there
I can’t look people in the eyes because they bleed into void
And sometimes I convince myself that my friends are just voices
Because it’s all I have

I’m a hypocrite
Because I write these words
And I didn’t read the first two lines
I stole them from a song I didn’t write
It’s fucked up and I want to cry
But the words are true
They’ll erase all the pain

I want to be loved
Everybody does