A part of just wants to put everything behind like this shame, anxiety, fear and all this negative emotions and feelings that seems to be in the way. And part of me just says it's just too late to change everything. You don't have enough time to fix everything. And you surely lack the confidence, skills, and smartness. Like I just want to be happy and fulfill my role in this life. For years, I've avoided facing my fears and now that I realize how much time has gone by. I feel this urgency that I have to do it now. No more wasting time.