Yes.

The anticipation, and the undue dread from visualizing what would happen if I for some reason forgot or neglected those obligations, can be draining.

It especially sucks when it's things I can't do now even if I wanted to, where the waiting is part of the anticipation.

The worst is having an end of day appointment. I'm thinking about it all day so I don't miss it and can't get anything done.

If I make plans in advance, they feel like obligations and I immediately want to flake. If I don't make plans in advance, I get anxious and say no because I don't have time to prepare mentally. The only way to get me to do anything is to hit the sweet spot right around 24 hours in advance, which gives me just the right amount of time to not feel either pressured or unprepared.

I don't do a lot of things.

buddy you have no idea

Yes constantly. It's the worst feeling.

I'm supposed to help an amazingly kind person who has helped me out a ton with a minor errand and i'm supposed to spend time with her and I wanna tell her nah i'm not up for it just out of existential dread and pre-emptive anxiety

yup. i call it 'pretired'. i really struggle to do anything i want to do toward the end of the weekend because of it.

Oh yeah, that’s me.

I’m fine with obligations as long as it’s far enough ahead so I can plan down time before hand.

Yes, and having more than 3-4 things happening in a week wears out my social battery like no other. Can't do things like doctor or dentist in the same week because they're all I can think about. It can be kinda frustrating.

Usually, if i have something important to do the next day, i can't sleep. Usually it's something where being rested would be good. also, yes, i hate having things on the calendar.

Depends what and how long.

I'm one of the few people that deeply enjoy org meetings, but if I have 2 jobs that eat up 90% of waking hours in a 48-hour span, the beginning of that feels dreadful.