I was an anarchist for a huge part of my life (most of my teenage years) and kinda began to get more connected with M-L and stuff like that, and I would call myself a marxist. Yet, everytime I talk with other leftist I either get called a tankie or an anarkiddie. If I recommend Das Kapital, I'm a state bootlicker or a left wing fascist. If I talk about how I prefer direct democracy but know that the process to communism is slow and needs some help of a state, I get called an anarkiddie. Anyway, I just find exhausting the infighting. I already struggle a lot with mental health just to be poorly treated by other people that, supposedly, want the same as all of us. Anyway you guys in lemmygrad have been always so nice, thanks btw. Have a nice week and thanks for reading my small rant.
My dear comrade, I'm sorry for your turmoil, it must be hard to be shunned like that indeed. But I wanna say that I'm proud of you, you looked into the theory and was not afraid to embrace what the evidence points to, instead of the toothless version of socialism of the ones that call us tankies, that is filled with lies they ate up from the CIA and other vile sources and became common sense, and I do understand why they think like that, to face and question said common sense is hard and makes people uncomfortable and creates rejection so people avoid it. All in all comrade you should stand for what you think its just and true and if it means who will be around you will change, I'm sorry for the strife it causes but at the end of the day is for the best, and know that here on lemmygrad we're all a big happy family of united tankies