Mainly here, but now that i think about it IRL sucks too. Its far too fucking easy for me to get mad, especially if someone found a trauma trigger. Being a communist sucks as an autistic person in general, im doomed to be shit at it. Won't stop me from trying, though.
It's not just you. People aren't built for this amount of conflict. And it isn't just you that's shit at it, the conditions aren't there, and it takes a lot more than arguing with others to spark a revolution. The best thing you do is disengage with the sources of stress in your life, and set limits on how much exposure you get to stressful situations.