Heck no for several reasons. First of all, I straight up knew something was wrong with me since I was 7, I just didn't know what. Had nightmares about it.

I was selfishly oblivious, never had many friends, and was inconsiderate to others. I mostly spent my time playing videogames. When my parents were struggling, I fussed about small things, took up the toilet all the time, I didn't study much at all.

Because of my fear of people, I didn't believe I could ever get a job, so I almost never tried to get a simple cashier job, and lived off my parents. I would go between trying to learn programing, absurd projects, and just going back to videogames.

I hurt many people, many insults, unjust accusations, made many enemies. I could never stick to rules or promises, I was always a coward, and never able to stick with anything.

Just some of the best people I meet, not wanting to be around me, how little I contribute to communities, and friends, is proof enough that I am a fundamentaly bad person.

I doubt that can ever change, so my goal is just to prevent others from being the same, if at all possible.

I understand that I don't deserve the things that normal people do, and I don't expect them anymore.