🫂 There will be causes for you hurting people. Heck, it is not easy keeping friends with a fear of people I recon. I am not saying that what you did wasn't hurtful, but maybe it made sense. Maybe you didn't know how else to act at the time. But the fact that you reflected on it and know you could have done better, that you try to prevent others from being like you; do you think that's what a bad person would do? No.

You are not a bad person, you are struggeling. If you can, seek therapy or counseling. You deserve the things everybody does. You deserve happiness.