You are right about screaming. Last night around 1am I was biking home through a park thinking nobody would here me shout and sing off key. My bike light is very dim so I didnt see a person 10 feet away but was singing my head off. I saw them as I passed and immediately erupted in laughter. Its so funny to think what is taboo is really fucking normal. Then I howled at the full moon and jumped the train tracks as a shortcut home. I was this . close to homelessness but I just signed a lease and I move in on Wednesday. We are all human and deserve kindness! Sorry abt your dog, honey. Just remember all the joy they brought you and you gave back 10x fold. They were so lucky to have an owner as amazing as you <3. Keep shouting in the car and out (if you feel it).