I'm not a beefy person, more like an emotional vegetarian tbh. Plenty of people have had beef with me, some for known reasons and some I can only speculate about. People are allowed to have their feelings, and even when it bothered me I never saw a reason to change myself to in response to others, so I've never returned the favour.

Except one person. This fucker tormented me for years until I finally accepted him as an enemy. I finally won (had him fired while I got to stay on), but I still don't feel good. I think this beef fundamentally changed me. I'm so much more petty and on edge and unwilling to trust people and let them in now than before. I don't know if I wish that I had pushed back years earlier or just left years ago without engaging, but I don't like myself as much now as I did before.