Soo I kinda need some help here. Ever since I've been working, it's been hard for me to hold a job. For reference, I've been working since I was 16 years old and I am turning 24 this week. I got my license to become an insurance adjuster when I was 19 years old, and have been trying to do that since, plus some other minimum wage stuff during off seasons. Since then I have been fired from multiple adjusting firms, insurance companies, and have walked out of multiple places, to the point where my license almost means nothing because most places know exactly who I am. I under perform, I have to meet people face to face which 90% of the time ends up bad because I'll say things I am absolutely not allowed to be saying, only for the sake of not "feeling awkward" in the moment, which only makes things worse in the present and future (had a gun pulled on me once). I don't really know how to describe it, and I don't know how to stop it. I've tried working with food, but the multiple smells and garbage you have to deal with consistently makes me sick to my stomach and when I go home I throw up for hours at a time. I've tried working in sales, but got fired from there because I hung up on a lady because my brain blanked out when trying to do a sales pitch (mind you, they even gave us a script to read in case that happens but for some reason my brain wouldn't let me say anything). I always tell myself, "oh yeah I won't fuck it up this time, I know what I'm going to not do this time," and then proceed to fuck it up. Like in my mind I know what to do, but I can't execute it. I don't know, am I just lazy?? I sometimes feel like I'm lazy, but sometimes I also feel like I just physically can't do things. I'm really conflicted, and I have a son I need to provide for, which is already hard enough for me. It's hard, and I'm honestly struggling. Mentally, financially, physically. My mom put me on medicine when I was a kid, but it messed with my appetite to the point where I wouldn't eat for multiple weeks at a time, and only ate when I was forced to, so my doctor said no more medicine. This post doesn't even explain all the times and reasons of me being fired and me walking out of jobs (if I explained every single one it would be like 3 more paragraphs the length of this post). Any advice helps. Thank you
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There is some good advice here, op, especially about resources around helping people with these challenges find work. I've just started occupational therapy myself and feel hopeful about it.
One thing I'd like to add is that when we are burnt out or constantly over stimulated it can really mess with our abilities. I was a cashier in a grocery store in my teens. Some days it really fucking sucked, especially because I was quickly promoted to head cashier (counting tills, making deposits, etc). Other days it was great. When it was busy I would just zone out and scan. Anyways, I when I walked out of my job in a lab because of sexual harassment and other crimes I asked if they would hire me again. They did! I lasted like 2 shifts. I brought my till to the office, sobbing, and left. The job I had done for years was suddenly impossible because of how much the stress of the lab situation fucked with me.
I later found a job as a line cook which was great for me. I stayed in that type of work for a few years until I got my degree.
I have learned that I absolutely cannot handle a thing where I need to be in contact with the public on an ongoing basis. I do presentations and outreach sometimes and I love doing that but that has defined roles and goals so it's cool.
Fingers crossed that you are able to find something that you can enjoy and thrive in, comrade.