because I followed him for a number of years, now kinda regrettably (we all make mistakes, it’s best to learn and move on, but still, this one hurt, I was a big fan for awhile).

Thank you. I really respect that you admit this. It's only by facing ourselves that we can change and grow; and while it's not necessary to admit it to anyone but yourself, that you admit it here shows we have all made mistakes, that we can learn and grow, and find forgiveness, acceptance, and willing teachers when we demonstrate a willingness to learn and grow together. Maybe someone who's wavering and curious will read this and find courage to explore their doubts.