I made this account because I cannot find the answer. I dont know if anyone will see this or respond either. My brain constantly talks to me, or more so im talking to myself. Its not once in awhile, but every minute. Everyday, it has not changed it has gotten worse. I either think of random things or negative things. Everytime I try to think positive, it switches to panic in my brain. This constant talk not only makes my head hurt but I cannot control my emotions half of the time. I also feel like my body is out of place as if im not in it. My body feels like it needs to move around but when I do, I cant. I feel as if Im frozen and uncomfortable even laying down. Everything seems difficult, I feel out of place and different from everybody. I keep researching but I cannot find the answer. The more deeper I go into my thoughts, the more I struggle to sleep and focus. I get deep thoughts on why I am in this world, why I am human, Why I exist. My brain spinning makes me want to exist less because of how tiring it is to feel like this everyday. I play a ton of video games and guitar because those seem to be the only two activities that makes my brain shut up for a short period. This is a very long type but I hope someone out here can help or give advice on what I should do.
I know if I try meditation id be fighting my brain to stop thinking, but I will try. I dont drink caffeine often everyday, maybe twice a week in the morning. busy activities still make the brain run except for certain activities such as guitar or gaming that I can put full focus on. Working out, studying, going out still drives my brain crazy
Meditation is not trying to stop thinking because that is not possible. It is more like noticing the thoughts but not jumping on board the train.
I don't like the description the other person commented about what meditation is because it makes no sense to me whenever I read it, so here's my take:
You can't stop yourself from thinking, that's not what meditation is, imagine telling people you don't walk because you can't run a marathon. Meditation is training is to slowly teach yourself when you're having a thought and think about it objectively. How does it do that? By asking you to do one thing: sit. Sit down and when your thought comes you're going to get involved with it, it will take you down a rabbit hole. At some point, however, you're going to REALIZE you're deep in the thought. That realization is the first step. Once you've REALIZED you're in the thought you just sit again. Take a few deep breaths, feel what your stomach feels while you breath in and out. Now another thought shows up and you start going with it. You ride that thought for a few minutes and then REALIZE you're thinking, you took another step.
The marathon is being able to do this every moment of your daily life, that's a tall ask that's not really achievable to most people.
What is achievable, to stick with the metaphor, is a few miles everyday. Right now anxiety hits you over some situation and you go through every doomsday scenario in your head, causing you more anxiety and stress. Building up a meditation habit puts a space between the thing that triggered your anxiety and the spiral of thoughts so you can use that space to analyze the anxiety and not let it take you over.
Imagine you have a problem, you tell your friend your problem, your friend flips out and gives you some insane answer that isn't helpful. You tell your friend that answer is ridiculous and your friend stops acting on emotion and starts giving you real problem solving help.
The friend is your brain, telling your friend the answer is ridiculous is the meditation doing the work in the real world.