That feeling will disappear eventually. I rarely even think about it even when I see smokers now. If I'm out drinking though that's a different story...

How I feel about my (soon to be ex-) wife...

I yearn for that strength. I'm sure I'll quit one day

How do you even have papers big enough

I agree with @RedditIsDeddit , it does not help. It may even make things worse. All this meme does is make me feel misunderstood and despised by others (While some of them don't even understand what I actually go through). Tobacco is a terrible addiction. I quited for two years but fell again when I broke up with my ex. During those two years I dreamt of smoking at least once a week and gained 15kg. I grew up in France in the 90s and then the country did a pretty shitty job protecting kids (I started buying cigarettes for myself at 14 and it was easy because the tobacco shop owner didn't bat an eye). I think the solution is prevention and children's protection (by preventing access) to ensure that they don't start. For those who already smoke the best is kind support not guilt and disdain. (And total bans don't help either, we just feel left out when the government who now bans us from every place and treats us like awful weak-willed bastards initially incitated us to smoke two decades ago with adds and easy access).