Look, I just want you to know:

I think socialism is an awful system and will lead to untold suffering and pain. It is rationally an awful decision.

But I can also absolutely understand every single US-American living through this shit wanting radical change. I am aware I am writing this from a privileged Position from the Heart of Europe and my View would probably be different if I was living through the same shit as you.

I still think you should settle in the middle for social democracy, maybe something a bit more left of it, but I can understand if you get emotional and take radical decisions.