Casual Conversation

Well, it's on my mind because I'm missing it lately. Haven't had the stamina to do anything in weeks.

And, tbh, the degree to which I'm able to do it is way below what I used to, and what I wish I could.

But martial arts. I mostly miss the weapons based stuff nowadays, what with getting too old to hit the ground and get back up fast lol. But I miss that stuff too. Up until fucking covid, I had been back training as my body and that of my teacher's allowed. Then, for while after covid, I was teaching a small group of kids. When that had to stop because of school needs (except my own kid), I switched to mostly solo stuff.

But between my body deteriorating, having extra stuff to do that's higher priority, I just can't do it like I want. Most weeks, if I get in a total of an hour fucking around with something, it's a good week this last year.

Back before Christmas, I had some time where I could use my stamina for that almost exclusively, and it was fun. Just fucking around, doing knife and cane practice a few times a day, maybe twenty minutes at a go. Then I fucked my back up doing something unrelated lol. Mind you, it's always fucked up, but I pulled a muscle on top of that.

And that's the sucky part of passing fifty. Even ten years ago, I would be better at this point, and I was disabled then too.

Could be worse though!