Eventually you realize you forget almost as much as you learn, it's like a bilge pump in a sinking boat. Then you focus on what you want to remember and come to acceptance with that.

Ah yes. I am truly a thirsty knowledge bitch.

There is a third way!

You thirst to know more but have a soul crushing deficit of self esteem and truly believe you're incapable of anything more than menial labor. You remain with your thirst, not content with your ignorance, but unable to overcome the self image of "absolute moron with no place in the scientific community who must be narcissistic for even thinking he could be" and so you grow to hate yourself even more because of it!

...Err.... Or so my friend says.

The more I learn, the better I understand Monthy Pythons song about how sweet it is to be an idot