Listen to this wisdom. I used to be a heart and soul person and it burned me out real bad. I left a smaller startup at a point where I was handling several projects at the same time and I felt guilty about dumping all of it on my coworkers. I thought I was vital to the company but I was quickly forgotten and replaced. I don't know why I ever cared so much. It was software I'd never use in my own life and it wasn't important to the people who did.

Save the passion for your personal projects and try to find something low stress to pay the bills