Most of the choices I've made in life have been in reaction to what I don't want, rather than what I do want.

I don't want to burn myself out in high school, so I stop taking dual-credit classes my senior year. Then, I don't want to take on student loan debt, so I forget about college entirely. Trade school, it is. But thanks to some physical handicaps, I don't have the body for most blue-collar work. But I can drive a truck. And after bouncing around from one trucking company to another, I learn I don't like hauling reefers or flatbeds. I don't like being "over the road", living in a truck full-time. But I don't care for "local" trucking either, not with how far I have to commute into the big city.

That's just one path, one example. I've got others.

Sometimes it's hard, figuring out the things in life I do want, beyond short-term crap, like what toppings I want on my pizza. I like writing. I love driving, in nearly all its forms, especially racing. I've always got music playing, the cab of my truck doubles as a karaoke booth. The coworker who watches my dashcam videos says I'm not a bad singer. Whether I do anything with this other information, it's anyone's guess.