Thank you ❤️
Also thank you for sharing your experience.
Tha main thing with me is ive had bad experiences of being called weird and stuff, so im not really imagining that im being perceieved in that way. "weird in the weirdest way possible" is a direct quote someone used to describe me.
That, combined with my intrusive thoughts about doing creepy things (i often put my hands behind my back just in case i do something) so it makes it really hard to not see myself as some predator. I self harm in response to possibly being creepy to deal with the guilt of it. Now that i think of it, theres nothing that i did, these are just as u say hangovers from socialising for me. Noone has actually said i acted badly at all.