Yeah I know and I have every confidence in him and his team. She could have lasik but it's not guaranteed to help and once you start chipping away at the eyes, you can't put it back. Where as this procedure involves putting a lense behind the cornea on both eyes and if it doesn't work they can be taken out. That's a lot of fucking around with eyes.

I have to keep telling myself this is not about me. She is excited and I need to focus on that but fuck it's hard. I feel sick.