This is...honestly NOT what I thought I would be writing today, lol. But, tbh...it really surprised me.
Just now, I was having some fun solo. I use a basic magic wand, have been using it for about 2 years now (best purchase EVER istg ๐).
I was playing a game, Lilith's Throne (highly recommend btw, I can provide the JAR files for anyone interested). It's a NSFW text-based RPG with tons of options, and I mean, TONS of options. The pros are, I'm sitting at my computer, which means at least one hand is free to play with my breasts (which feels amazing) and also...idk, I just prefer text, ig? It leaves so much up to your imagination...I honestly prefer it to "normal" visual porn. Needless to say, I've been playing this game quite a bit ๐ (don't sue me, I'm at home alone like every day, what am I supposed to do? ๐ญ).
So umm...this has happened a couple of times before, specifically when playing this game, but...today was different. When I did finish, I just kinda...I guess convulsed is the appropriate word ๐. Not literal convulsions, but I just couldn't...not shake, if that makes sense? I had very little control over it. I shook so freaking much and couldn't even stop, omg, and this is very unusual for me, so I was pretty surprised.
Also...the feeling was different in a way...it was kind of like these electric "waves" everywhere, all over my body. In a weird way...it almost felt like the electricity was "driving" the involuntary shakes. If that makes any sense at all? Probably not.
And the breathing, omg the breathing. I'm usually pretty quiet, when it comes to solo. I won't say I was vocal, not in the way I am with my bf (moaning), but my breathing got super quick, kinda loud too, honestly, and there was just nothing I could do...so I just enjoyed it ๐.
And also, I just felt like it lasted a while too. Now, the last thing I want to do when having fun is to set a stopwatch, but it definitely felt a lot longer this time...
What I'd also like to mention tho...that feeling of guilt and shame that happened after every single orgasm pre-HRT...that's long gone, and I'm super happy about that. Nowadays, I just feel satisfied, you know? And after this specific one, I felt super satisfied but also really exhausted, lol.
This is...so freaking TMI. This whole post, really ๐
It's just...I'm really happy. It may be too early for me, but things are definitely changing for the better. I love estrogen so freaking much ๐ฉท
Thanks for reading! Umm...sorry? I guess? I just wanted to share. Oversharing is overcaring indeed ๐
Edit: I should have probably mentioned, 6mo 3w HRT today precisely (lol) and also 3 weeks of rectal prog (400mg) today, also precisely (how did I do this? ๐)