Nothing in the world seems to help. I spent forever trying to find something to watch, but literally nothing felt good. Even when I eventually put something on it felt empty and I just ended up staring at the wall. I tried playing videos games, some of which I really love, and I turned them all off after a few minutes. I've tried other things too. Half the time I don't even eat. Time passes in slow motion, like some kind of purgatory. The worst is I can't even sleep. I have the next few days off and they're going to feel like an eternity. It actually scares me. How do you get through this? I'm desperate.
For what it's worth, I see a therapist weekly and I'm on a few different medications. This particular bout of sadness is caused by an especially painful rejection.
I've never wanted to sing, I can't remember lyrics anyway, I just wanted to play the guitar. I was especially interested in learning electric lead guitar, and acoustic fingerpicking. I've really settled into the finger picking thing because I can play full songs, beginning to end, all by myself, while the electric guitar is more random riffs, solos, and cool guitar parts, but it really requires other players for the full effect.
Music is tough, there's a long learning curve, and guitar is particularly hard, but the payoff is huge if you stick with it. If you decide to go that route, DM me, and I'll give you some advice to get off on the right foot.