It’s so scary, isn’t it?! I’m sorry to hear your friends haven’t been supportive, you definitely deserve better
I’ve been very fortunate that everyone I’ve come out to so far has been really positive and supportive. But I also started with all the “easy” ones: my queer and progressive friends, my therapist, etc. And I still have to figure out how to manage coming out to my conservative Catholic family, and at work.
I feel like I’m spending so much time agonizing over what might happen, I just need to have it be done so I can deal with whatever actually does end up happening