I was raised Mormon.

I remember chilling in the computer lab at university when I came across someone's Jehova's Witness deconversion story online. It was so eerily similar to my experience that I couldn't stop thinking about it. Because it wasn't my religion, I was able to see it the way an outsider might see my own.

It broke something inside me irreparably. Faith became a dirty word. All conservative values instantly vanished. I guess this conflict had been beneath the surface for some time but finding that story lit a match.

I mean what kind of religion needs to brainwash its members not to seek out material critical of itself? What kind of religion puts you in a room, alone, as a teenager, with a 50-year-old man who is asking you about your sexual habits? What kind of religion has billions of dollars in real estate investments? What kind of religion requires you to ring people's doorbells and pester them about your religion? What kind of religion asks you to (despite how they phrase it) hate gay people?

I stopped having anything to do with the church after that. When it comes to integrity, I can't pretend. I was able to hold my ground against all the creepy shit that happens when you leave a cult. And now, 20+ years later, I rarely even think about it.