This isn't corporate social media, you can say suicide there's no algorithm to punish you.

I'm struggling with the same type of thoughts and feel suicidal every day now. Every headline I read is another reason I dont want to live anymore. You're not going crazy, the world is. I know it might seem counter productive to not stay in the loop of things, but I try to take a break from all social media and news every once in awhile to keep my sanity. I love lemmy and the progressive ideas that are shared on here on a daily basis, but the news you read can make you feel powerless and over these big societal issues that don't have an immediate solution.

I really hope you feel better soon, your hearts in the right place. The fediverse is the only real place where I can reliably find empathic people looking out for one another. I wish I could have offered more sound advice as I can barely keep it together myself too, but make sure you have people you can talk about this in your life. Unfortunately I can't afford meds or therapy so I've been depending on my friends and family to help keep me sane. Stay safe!

It's classic prisoner's dilemma from game theory. Will my participation matter against the millions of people who won't ever care? Realistically no. But participating will hurt me financially because it takes away a low-cost alternative. There's a ton of stuff I can't buy locally at any cost, or can but at a much higher cost. If I go buy these things on individual websites, I'll pay shipping, negating savings. So, why would I hurt myself financially to affect no change, when others will take advantage of the system without ever caring? It just gives them an advantage over me on an individual level. Even if I convinced 1,000 people to act like me, meaningful change to the system isn't affected, only weakening of our group. And honestly that means 1,000 people who have less resources to affect OTHER change with.

Prisoner's dilemma doesn't mean that the prisoners are bad or evil, it just means there are too many individuals acting in self-interest. We are too big a country. Too big a world population.

The solution is top-down, we have to elect leaders who then make rules we ALL abide by for our own benefit at the macro level. That's the only way problems of this scale can be changed anymore. And the systems themselves know this and factor it in, locking us out. Late stage capitalism is called "late stage" for a reason, it's too late for a cure.