I feel like these are all things that I also go through as a (probably mostly???) binary trans person. I don't really know who I want to be yet and have to discover this, too. I think it is always as much about finding yourself as it is about finding the right gender and gender expression.
On days when I feel confident in myself, I also enjoy this very specific mood of nonconforming and messing with people's perception of gender :)
Would be great if you wanted to post here!!