Sometimes, but not always. I used to call myself colorblind, but I could see how the cops treated my black friends worse than they treated me. At one point, they rounded us up waiting at the bus stop (there was an abandoned restaurant by the bus stop, and the cops said we were trying to break in), and all my POC friends got frisked, but I was the only blonde girl, so I just got a talking to about how "hanging out with the wrong crowd will ruin my life". Some of those kids are working on their PhD now, so "wrong crowd", kiss my ass.
I understood "colorblind" as a "skin tone has no bearing on how I interact with you, we're all human".
I always thought that "everybody gets treated the same at first, adjust as we go along" was respectful, but then moved to the west coast and it's apparently a horribly racist thing to do here, and I don't understand why?? Something about how black people are going through struggles I can't understand, but I also thought that everybody had struggles I don't know about?
Like, if I don't make assumptions about somebody in a wheelchair, it's a good thing and not ableist, but if I don't make assumptions about a black person, it's a bad thing and racist? I have never been able to understand how people up here think it's less racist to stereotype an ethnicity.
There's also the problem with white "leftists" up here not actually knowing any POC and getting it from fucking facebook memes. Like, I had a white person once tell me, in all seriousness, that me saying "hey, what's up" is appropriating AAVE and the correct thing to say in greeting to a black person is "I see and respect our differences". I said that sounded patronizing as fuck, and she said I should join the kkk with that attitude.
Unlearning racism has been an awful experience, really. I'm listening to what black people say they want, but that's somehow still racist, and I'm so close to just giving up and doing what feels right to me.