I've always told people that I could never move to my parents country because I just don't fit in. The few times I've visited I'm sure I stick out like a sore thumb and I've never really been able to connect with my extended family. Everyone from my generation is either a bougie lib (mostly on my dad's side) or an evangelical (on my mom's side). The car culture there is probably on par, if not just as bad as it is in the US.

its kinda sad that imperialism and neocolonialism created a positive feedback loop wherein third worlders move to western countries for better opportunities and pay with most becoming frothing reactionaries (due to basic class interest) who would kill every single one of their own just for the chance to be accepted as white

not saying your diaspora are like that, obviously. but a lot are.

My issue is being disabled. I rely on a lot of medical supplies daily for stuff I won't gross out the class with. It might be out of the frying pan and into the fire. The first A in "ADA" isn't "Around the world."

You know that sort of thing is why my response to racists saying "don't like it? Just go back to your home country" tends to be so hateful toward them.

The global north sucks but this is my home and I actually literally can't easily go to my parents' home country because I'd fit in even worse. They'd treat me as an outsider there too, and actually with much better grounds because I'd be "the American". Culturally I'm not a fit. Language? I have the comprehension of maybe a 6 month old, if that. Religion? Apostate so that's fantastic. Heat tolerance? I think I would actually just die of heatstroke, and no, AC isn't the solution because brownouts are frequent.

As things have gotten worse I've wondered if I should try to go somewhere else -- if not my parents' home country then another place -- and I always land back on: at least I have friends here and I know the culture and the landscape.