The second step to addiction recovery is to create a support system and seek professional treatment. Since you and I are off to a GREAT start, I'll deputize myself as your helper. Not sure what part of the US you are in but judging on your brand of rage, I'm guessing a very white and angry part.

Anyway - The National Drug and Alcohol Treatment Hotline, operated by the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA), is a free, confidential, 24/7 service available at 1-800-662-HELP.