say what u like and get sweatshop cheap prices.

your words are cheap without action.

Now you are a curious soul?

I'm a solid guitarist who loves chords and rhythm.

I'll do anything. But I get very bored in a raeggae band. (I'm just doing up beats and no melody)

Although, I am conditioned by my age and background.

Which is 50+ and white english/irish.

Currently: I like, prog rock like Steven Wilson and porcupine tree.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RPZ8Xy1hO9s&list=RDRPZ8Xy1hO9s&start_radio=1&pp=ygUNc3RldmVuIHdpbHNvbqAHAQ%3D%3D

This was the last song I enjoyed.

I love a tight well done pop song. So many to talk about and forget.

The Police where a thing for me when I was growing up. The raw era, regatta de blanc (was more about the drummer for me then, still is) It's a hihat thing.

All of the grunge, mainly nirvana, alice in chains, pearljam

Black hole sun didn't make a whole band interesting, was just brilliant.

before that period, my friends (the cool people) where older so it was pink floyd, the specials, jam, led zep, Bowie and more.

It's countless the number of bands I've heard live.

I had a Jazz perioid, learnt me some new inverseions of the same stuff and some cruel turnarounds.

I played in a church choir as a child, they ruined the blues and country out of me.

They made that musical structure PTSD.

For some reason, you can only get the blues out of me when a deviant harmonica player takes his favourite harp out. Then I will play like I'm born in the swamps of mississippi.

Sus something and no resolution from now on.

There are no plagal endings.

Damn the theory.

Thank you for replying, away for 3 months

I'm very introverted/introspective but I do like company.

We met up today and had coffee.

We had so much to talk about together.

It was like old times.

Thank you for asking.

Gonna push myself to something extravagant next week (guitar jam)

As someone who suffers greatly with their mental health, this comment gave me some hope to start again.

I am quite old now, more than 50 and yet this comment gave me hope by understanding my condition and a possible yet difficult remedy.

I renewed a friendship today, it's a start.

The neural pathways guiding positive affect may atrophy significantly during a prolonged depressive episode, and there is no instinctive restart mechanism which builds up these pathways again once the episode is over. It is similar to people whose body atrophies significantly after a injury and require PT in order to regain control of their body. As a general rule, once something which is naturally self-sustaining atrophies beyond a certain point, its feedback loop can no longer generate the upward momentum required to sustain itself, so it effectively turns off.

There is a sort of simple solution though, which is to re-stimulate the pathways manually so as to jumpstart the feedback loop. This requires a sustained effort, becoming effectively an exercise, in a context in which you most likely have no idea what to do or how to activate those pathways. So there are two components at play - 1: You must repeatedly active the pathways day after day for potentially weeks to months to years (depending on skillfulness and time committed). 2: You must know how to activate the pathways. Being the case that these systems are by their nature self-sustaining, that being they operate without any necessary conscious awareness, we generally do not know how to actually do what we do even when the pathways are healthy. In that way they were only learned implicitly, so there is no knowledge of how to jumpstart the pathways.

All that is to say that blunted affect seems quite natural of a response given the nature of the system. The solutions then require either the external world to active those pathways for you (TMS, support system, drugs, etc), or you yourself must find the capacity to generate the effort and activate the pathways, probably with direction as to how to active those pathways since it is not implicitly known.

This is why Positive Affect Treatment appears to be one of the better therapeutic treatments for anhedonia, as the exercises require one to manually flex the affective muscle (which is essentially just your imagination), even though it will not feel like they are doing anything valueable at first and they will most likely hate it and want to stop.

This is why one must first understand the nature of how learning works so that they can clearly see how the onset of learning is always a confusing walk in an unknown space with no immediate tangible results. They must also understand how learning works through repeated neural activation over time, and see this clearly as fact. They must understand how entering with a beginners mind, clear of judgments and expectations, will produce results the most effective results as it A. does not encode the negative emotions one might otherwise generate in the act, and B. encourages initial random walks of the learning space early on which as machine learning proves to us is necessary to escape local minmas (i'm suggesting beginners mind is like a high learning rate). It also requires something of a leap of faith, even if you understand all that and see it to be true, as until you have undergone the process yourself, you will not know for a while whether it actually is true, and the skepticism will gnaw at you, especially since the natural anhedonic draw is into low effort and low motivation.

The most difficult aspect of it all is ultimately that you have to rest in a place of both knowing and not-knowing. What I mean is that that is what the experience is like, for imagination is an act of knowing, but you are knowing something that you have no knowledge off, so an act of knowing what is not-known, which is frustrating. I recommend doing this in bed at night when the imagination is often at its most active and immersive, and you will likely find it entering into your dreams, which will repeat the patterns some time over. I don't think one needs PAT specifically, but it does provide some ideas, and one might best tailor it to their own self and what they feel like doing and would enjoy the most, which will make it more sustainable over time.

I say all this as this is what I did and it worked for me and the general anhedonia research supports these claims which is why I did it.

With the amount of money being spent on AI 20 Billion is a drop in the ocean.

I tend to buy new and keep for as long as possible, I bit the bullet today and bought a Fairphone 6+. It will go nicely with my Framework 13. I like repairable things.

I have a semi decent desktop 12600K, 32gb ram, 4080 with lots of storage. I bought a new Framework FW13 laptop 18 months ago. On the computer side, I think I can ride this out.

However, My phone is on the fritz so I'm gonna have to shell out for a new one soon.

Apart from a new phone, I will just ride this out.