one thing i did not see coming, but should have (i really am an idiot): i am completely unenthused whenever anyone announces a piece of software. i'll see something on the rust subreddit that i would have originally thought "that's cool" and now my reaction is "great, gotta see if an llm was used"
everything feels gloomy.
saw a family member today for the first time in three years. they immediately told me "with your background bro you should just go work in AI and get super rich."
told them that the ai shit doesn't work and that everything involving LLMs is downright unethical. they respond
"i had a boss that gave me the best advice: you can either be right or you can be rich."
recently, i saw someone use the phrase "got my bag nihilism" and i feel it really captures the moment. i just don't understand how people can engage in this kind of behavior and even live with themselves, let alone ooze pride. it's repulsive.
(family member later outright admitted that his job is basically selling things to companies that they don't need.)