I grew up playing. I love to play. My job is planning complicated shit. My friend asked me to DM after they got a he'd injury. Instant anxiety. Not sure I can do it.

Maybe I should just set a date of the session and not run when I "feel ready"...

That way, we can actually play x_x

Painfully real.

Last minute panic is good, but I prefer 3 am bouts of manic insomnia. You get your best prep done when your brain refuses to sleep but is too tired to filter out ideas you might think are too out there or just bad when in a more lucid state. They're all just ideas, and your brain just keeps chucking them at the wall until something sticks.

-ps: no this isn't healthy, but we all have our own ways of entering that creative flow state.

I'm about to run some fun sessions for a leadership camp for youth with disabilities. I'm desperately trying to avoid this method of creativity