This thread is a great commentary on grind culture. I feel every word of this. As I understand it, it's in part the mindless pursuit of "success", and the suffering caused by losing a feeling of safety in the world

At the end of the day, life isn't meant to be effective, it's meant to be enjoyed as much as reasonably possible. I'm also on a journey of getting back to my inner child. Only piece of advice I can offer: if it seems a little silly as an adult, you should probably do it.Today as I left the gym, I one-foot-hopped through some hula hoops laid on the ground for the next class. I realised after it probably looked silly, but it also made my heart smile, so: worth it

Are you (or were you) super into finances?

I am, or was, I don't know anymore. But mostly to survive rather than wanting to be rich and successful. I'm free spirited by nature but circumstances made me this way. All my loved ones, while being great in many things, totally suck in managing their finances. It's up to me to constantly watch over everything like a hawk so I won't have to keep cleaning up their mess.

I think the grind culture as mentioned in comment below applies to most people though, not just those who are really into finances. We're all driven by the fear of not being able to put food on the table, of falling sick and becoming a burden to our families.

I'm now in a pretty comfortable spot where I can just work part time and still pay off the loans comfortably. Maybe even retire a little earlier. But getting here has really taken its toll. Don't get me wrong though, I'd still do the same even if I was given a second chance; not for myself but for my loved ones. But I'll go through everything again with a different attitude, enjoy the journey more, have fewer expectations and be a little kinder to myself and others.