It's an incredibly hard read. It's legitimately a graduate school philosophy class reading level. I would love to take that theoretical class and read along/discuss with a group but it's hard to go through alone.

It took me a long time. As a kid just read the funny stories that started each chapter, but then got stuck into it while I was in high school. It’s so dense that you can read a chapter and then take weeks to digest it all.

I read about 10% in college and it’s served me well. That 10% has been valuable on its own.

Maybe instead of trying to determine why you’re avoiding it (a task that suffers from the halting problem), you could just read a few pages and see what happens.