I used to spend hours in front of the mirror, desperately searching for just one single attractive feature but all I ever found were more and more flaws.I thought things had finally changed when I turned 20 -I felt so much better, having convinced myself that being a loner was just who I was meant to be. But then I started falling for a coworker. I foolishly assumed he was kind to me because he liked me, but then I saw the way he flirts with a woman he is genuinely interested in..Of course he doesnt love me. He is just a deeply kind person, and it’s heartbreaking to realize he probably only feels pity for me. I will never be anything more to him than a charity case or a friendly coworker. Now, I’m starting to hate myself and my appearance all over again. I’m beginning to shut everyone out once more, I’m falling right back into this living hell