Thank you!! I'm doing my best and it feels absolutely worth it right now, so thank you for believing in me! 
lightbulb moment
I was rewriting a scene from a side plot that ties into the main plot when I scrolled over a scene I thought was very emotionally intense while writing it. Short version: my protagnoist is talking to "the ghost" of her ex, and they had a really complicated relationship, but he asks her to finally let go. I was so captivated by what I wrote, I completely forgot about editing and reread the entire scene, then put down the draft and decided to do something else. My head wasn't in the game for rewriting or editing, so I figured I'll leave it be. Then I think a day or so later, I was doing something unrelated when it finally hit me: Letting go of that ghost isn't the first time I mention this emotional concept, and there were multiple scenes before and after that one that feature "letting go". The first few are very subtle, then they become more obvious until the point where I as the author actually acknowledge the elephant in the room and make it into the main purpose of the story. Smoothing that thing out to feel more natural is now the main purpose of the current editing process.